Well, this is the blog I haven't really been able to write about. Wish I never had to write about. Last week we got "the talk" from the doctors. You know the talk that one never wants to get about someone they love. After two years of intensive treatments for my mom's breast cancer, the doctors feel that they've done all that they can do. I'm ANGRY, DISAPPOINTED, and SAD.
ANGRY that we put Mom through two years of hellish treatments only to wind up here, with them telling us it hasn't helped. ANGRY that this cancer has taken one of the most vibrant people I know and turned her into someone in constant pain who needs around the clock care. I'm DISAPPOINTED in myself that I wasn't able to find something/someone that could help her. I'm DISAPPOINTED that my sons don't have their grandma at their games cheering them on.
But mostly I'm just SAD that I may lose the most influential person in my life. She made me the person I am today and I cannot imagine my life without her. She's the first person I call to share good news and the first person I turn to with bad news. She's my rock and I just don't know if I'll be the same person without her.
I will say that I'm not ready to give up and neither is she. She's the most optimistic person I know and she's remained positive and faithful throughout all of this so we owe it her to remain the same way. We believe in the power of prayer and know that we have hundreds of people praying for her.
Tonight I pray for mercy and peace.
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Last week, the boys and I took advantage of my furlough day and went to Uncle Shucks' Pumpkin Patch and Corn Maze. As you can see by the pictures, the boys had a blast and we did manage to find our way OUT of the maze after a not so brief time. Yes, we were completely lost and tried to rely on my 10 year old's sense of direction and map skills. But hey, I figured he certainly could do as well as I could! Reed was too busy helping me keep the little ones out of the mud, although he was quick to point out when Ridge seemed to get us deeper into the maze rather than closer to the exit. Ripken was afraid of the mud and River slid up in it five minutes after we reached the first corner of the maze. I guess it didn't occur to me how much mud rain can create in a corn field. But regardless, we had a blast and yes, we did find our way out with only a slight case of claustrophobia from me! Dave just doesn't know the fun he misses out on when he works!
Monday, October 5, 2009
Recently we were given tickets to see "Sesame Street Live". What fun! We had great seats in a VIP Suite. We even got to use the same entrance that the Atlanta Hawks and Atlanta Thrashers players and coaches use. Walking down the players' hallway was Ridge's favorite part. He was a little indifferent about the show, but River and Ripken loved it, of course. As you can probably tell from the pictures, they enjoyed hanging out in the suite during intermission as much as the show!